YES! Ifeel like that all the time. I waste so much time erasing stuff and covering stuff up because I feel like someone can find something they can use against me. I'm a good person. I know I am. When I am rational and clear headed I know that no one is against me or out to get me (this is rare).

My blinds and curtains are always shut tight

I have conversations with friends and I annoy them with my paranoia. I ask them over and over and over if so and so is after me or going to get me and they get really upset with me and I loose my friends over it.

I know how hard it is to post on here. Even posting this makes me feel like someone is going to get me. The wrong person is going to see this and snap everything out from under my feet and my life will come crashing down. I try to think that even if that did happen, I could handle picking up the pieces of my life again.

I really understand being embarrassed, don't be, I am glad you are saying something. I am glad I found this site so I know I am not alone in these feelings.