Kacey - I know this has been a horrible blow.

I do think, however, it is important to realize here that you do have a choice. The power lies with you, not your therapist.

You get to choose and not simply react, to the situation at hand.

Again, I understand the hurt and the desire to run from everything, but, again, ask yourself am I really chosing to do this, or am I reacting to a situation?

Am I exercising my fundamental right as a human being to exert my will and wants, or letting other people decide for me how I will respond.

I know if I were you I would be thinking WHAT? Why would anyone chose to walk back into that painful situation? Really? Really? Go back????

Well, from the outside looking in, I can see that there may be something salvagable here in the relationship. Try to look at the relationship as a whole and separate from this incident. You might decide that the good stuff there outweighs the events (upsetting though they may be) of the past week.

I think it is through this deliberation that your true power, and innate right as a human, lies. You are not at the mercy of others here. You do not have to run if you do not want to .

Also, dude, put the sleeping pills down okay? Not only is it dangerous, but they will cloud your judgement. You cannot reclaim anything under the spell of tranquilizer.

Finally, sorry lady, but you do not get a get out of normal pass for the desire to push that guy off a cliff. Yeppers, it's almost universal for humans, whether we care to admit it or not, to have those same impulses. Humans harbor much greatness, AND much, well, not so greatness.

It's in all of us and you are very very much one of us.