(((((((((((((rainstorm)))))))))))))))

what helped me with that was to literally tear into the event as much as I could with my therapist and try to accept that i was truly a victim. it's hard, but it did help.

Also, when doing that, reminding self what I would say to, or feel about, someone I cared about in the SAME situation then apply it. It helped me to better recognize it as the abuse it was wherein I was the victim.

I wish you well there, and healing.

KD