I was NOT willing to admit T was right and I was wrong. I had been given so much incredibly bad advice by my family, so inappropriate to ME, so blind to who I actually was, that the FIRST thing I needed from T, was for T to validate that. T taking an adversarial stance in the beginning would not have worked for me. Of course, that raises the question, then why go to T if you're just looking for someone to agree with you? You obviously are going because you admit something is wrong, you must be doing something wrong; why not just let them tell you what it is? Because they don't know what happened to me, so how can they advise? Heck, I barely understand what happened to me and what it meant, what the repercussions were for my development, what I missed, what went wrong, what went right. I guess I DO do my therapy like I did my computer work - dig until I find all contributing factors. No "striking from the record" allowed. You can't fool a computer.