No. I do not experience therapy as adversarial. I would not be able to work with a T that I had an adversarial relationship with. I need someone that is patient with me, that I can feel comfortable with, and that will gently challenge me. At the same time, I don't want a T that will buffer me from the world or baby me. I want simple honesty and respect.

I think, for me, I desperately want to feel a connection with someone, but I'm afraid to. If my T were strongly adversarial (not talking about gently challenging my beliefs and thoughts) then it would be very frightening for me and I wouldn't be able to build a connection. I need to be able to respect and feel respected to work with someone.