Lamictal seems to be useful for that, with me anyway. I can SO relate to your original post, hamster......I've done that all my life and driven people away more than once.

The last time was a few weeks ago, when my son and I had the worst fight of his life---he suddenly refused to answer his phone and would not call me back. Even though I knew I should leave him alone, I couldn't seem to stop trying to get him to respond to me, and I just LOST IT. Thank God for the Lamictal, it's chilled me out a lot and brought me out of the mixed episode I spent the last four months fighting.
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