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Originally Posted by pbutton
Both sound like legitimate topics. I think if it was me, I'd take a really close look to try to determine if I was talking about the depression to avoid talking about the story. Usually it's the stuff that I try to avoid that I most need to talk about.
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it's true that even thinking about talking about the CSA makes me wanna go:
But, I really am struggling against being depressed. It's not like I'm making it up (at least I don't think I am) to avoid talking about the CSA.
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Originally Posted by wintergirl
As far as eradicating the depression stuff - I know it will take time (maybe a long time!), but I can tell from your posts that you are thoughtful, intelligent, articulate and motivated. You can overcome this.
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Ah, I'm blushing! Thank you!
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Originally Posted by Readytostop
Just throwing this out there...could knowing the CSA stuff is looming out there (to be talked about soon)...be adding to your feelings of worthlessness...is there potential that talking through the CSA stuff could actually make you feel better?
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I don't know if it will make me feel better. It sure SEEMS like it's going to make me feel worse, at least in the short term. On the other hand, it seems like I am never going to feel better until I deal with it somehow.
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Originally Posted by tooski
Congratulations on writing the story and starting to delve into this difficult stuff! That's a big step right there. And you know it's going to stir up some emotions. I've heard that "depression is anger turned inward", and I would imagine there's a lot of anger in you toward what happened to you in childhood. There should be! Rather than manage the depression as a separate thing, why not focus on figuring out why you're depressed? If you can get in touch with the anger, maybe you'll feel angry instead of depressed! Truly, given my druthers, I'd rather be angry than depressed. At least I feel alive when I'm angry .....
Here's hoping you have a good session tomorrow, whatever you decide to do.
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I do have anger. But I also feel worthless and ashamed. Like I am always LESS THAN other people in my life. And I'm tired of feeling that way.
Thank you to everyone for your input and support. I feel like I'm being a big pansy and making a bigger deal out of this than I should. Really, it's not that big of a deal -- what happened to me. It's not like I was raped or anything. Not sure why I can't just get over this without having to actually say gross stuff out loud. I hate being such a baby.
