i understand where you are coming from on this.. i too often feel so dirty still even though i am constantly reminded of how it was not my fault and that "I" am not the b*d person in this whole thing.. but its just so hard still for it to take away the dirty feeling left over inside of me.. i do wish you healing.. healing for you and I both on this subject.. i know it will take time to get there for me..

Kat