You are not being a big pansy or baby. Do you need to go back and read what you wrote to me? I understand the "it is not like I had X happen so mine is no big deal" - I am queen of the I did not have X happen and so it is no big deal. But if it happened to your kids - would it be a big deal? Are you so much more special that you are the one who should be impervious? (I mean this nicely - not meanly)(I have to say it to myself about a hundred times a day when thinking about my childhood). You can do it. You can choose to work on getting some relief - it may not be perfect and 100% all the time. But relief from how awful it is right now. And we are here supporting you.