Do you ever have sessions where you and T don't seem to be on the same page? Where she seems to have a different agenda?

I've seen my T a while and generally speaking she is a good T. I've reached a point where the transference is deepening and I've felt quite close to her.

But I've had a session where she doesn't seem to understand me at all. I ended up angry inside and unable to tell her. She seemed determined to 'jump in' on everything I said and turn it into something she felt I needed to work on, not something I simply wanted to offload about. Ironically it felt like it is with my mother who always 'talks over' everything I say. It's tiring.

I feel completely disconnected.I don't know how else to put it just that I felt she wasn't listening or hearing me. I felt I had to rush through everything I said just to get a look in. I wanted to talk, be heard, not be analysed. I even got upset about something but she wasn't really understanding what I was crying about.

We were on different pages and the saddest thing is I felt too scared to tell her I was angry. I felt so helpless all over again

The ending was especially horrible. I have a thing about physcial contact (which we are working on) and lately during sessions she has held my hand for a little while at the end, ie a few minutes or so. This time she was talking so much that by the time she finished it had gone a few minutes over time. I asked to hold her hand anyway. She noticably hesitated - then took it just for a few seconds. But I felt she had minded so I asked her if she had. She simply said this was an issue we were working on, THEN she pointed out it was past the end of the session and this boundary was an important one to keep.

I left feeling very rejected. Maybe her words were okay, but I took them badly. I was angry and hurt.

I don't know how to get through this week apart from trying not to think about t at all. At times like this I feel it is all useless and pointless.