I don't take stress well. This is something an ex used to scream at me every time we fought and it's true. My preferred method of dealing with stress is put on loud music and forget about it --- but I can't do that now. I'm expected to be a responsible adult, damn it, and I just don't feel like one right now.

I feel like what little sanity I have has completely left. Everything is so scrambled and frenzied right now. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack, but I don't. I just feel the dread of one coming. I'm feeling sick, I'm nervous, I can't focus --- and there's nothing I can do about any of it right now. I just have to wait it out but I want it over with.

I just wanna sleep and I can't even do that. This **** sucks.