I did it again. I was so frustrated over the weekend by my neighbors intrusions that I ended up losing my cool. Still frazzled in the morning I had to go to Walmart to pick up my prescription and they had it all screwed up. After an hour on the phone with corporate and then going in to the store I was ready for a fight. I lost it, started swearing up a storm, they hurried and got my script ready which was supposedly ready to go before I got there, then I swore thru the store slamming things and went outside to wait for the bus. I was at a 10, even after a xanax and getting to the safety of my home, I could not bring myself down. Finally I called someone and vented long enough to get my heart rate back to normal. Within an hour I crashed....10 to 0 ...and I went to bed totally spent for the rest of the day. Most people talk about going from 1 to 10 in a manic phase but for me it was backwards. Today I feel like I've been hit by a truck.