Hi everyone

I've spent some time reading the posts and everyone seems really helpful and supportive so I thought I'd throw something in, if that's ok.

Very briefly, I've had depression for over 10 years, now 30y/o, and in a 2-year resistant phase. Currently on Lamictal, Zyprexa and Prozac due to a bit of a "maybe" manic episode.

Anyway, cue me deciding that after putting back on the stone that I had lost whilst feeling wired, I stopped taking Zyprexa yesterday, and didn't sleep well. Instead I took some Seroquel which I had left from my many past daliances with meds.

Today I couldn't work and really really needed to. Really. (I'm a Masters student). I took some Lyrica (pregablin - anti-anxiety) because I felt very agitated and quite anxious. Also, admittedly, because it makes me feel "high". Not a good idea I know. and not in a productive work way either. So I'm trying to resign myself to tidying the mess before the in-laws get here.

Not really sure what I'm trying to say. My pdoc is away until next week so can't see him. Appreciate I shouldn't have stopped Zyprexa but it made me SO down to be SO hungry all of the time. But self-medication isn't great either.

Not sure what I feel. A bit high, a bit wired, but very down.

Just I guess wanting people to listen and some support :-) very vague I know.

I just want to sort myself out and be able to work and function like a normal person x