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Old Apr 03, 2012, 12:24 PM
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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0 View Post
Ok, listen up folks who are lucky enough, yes I said lucky, to get disability... Please read further before labelling me a total biatch.
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There is N0 way a dr would render me disabled, I've been out of work for 13 months now. They say our job market is skeletal and my credit record counts against me (manic debt) . My dad never had life insurance, he left my mom with a HUGE amount of debt as he wasn't paying the rates and utilities regularly. We live off of my mom's PENSION, pension in SA is PEANUTS, it's like just over $100! And food is M0RE expensive in the poorer areas. Why? Idk, maybe our govt wants to keep the poor poor. I have N0 internet, God has intervened to keep me sane, and my cellphone connects even tho it shouldn't (so if I suddenly dissapear, it just means my network discovered me)
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My sister tries to buy groceries once a month, but even so, there is atleast 1 week, sometimes 2, where we are living off of handouts from neighbours, or borrowing money that my mom's pension has to pay for. Most nights I have supper at my friends house cos I feel guilty about being a healthy 27y.o deadweight. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TONIGHT'S SUPPER CAME FROM, the cupboards are bare, but my mom is cooking. It won't be anything spectacular, but our bellies will be full.
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My 8y.o daughter has had to adjust dramatically over the last 6 months, she asked me 'are we poor now?' i said no. We have a roof over our heads, clothes on our back and food in our bellies. Money will make a comeback in our lives...
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No, I'm not having a pity party of my own, I would rather you guys didn't know any of this, but i'm trying to put things in perspective for those who think disability is the proverbial end of the world.
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The government is barely giving hand outs the way that they used to because of the economy. The economy tanks and poor people, myself included, feel it the most. I'm employed but most days I feel like I shouldn't be. Like Trippen, its likely that I would never even qualify to get disability. Even though I feel bad enough in the head to the point where I want to straight snap on coworkers some days...We all know that stress can make your bipolar unbareable at times. Well, I'm there right now. Guess what? I get to decide between buying food for my daughter or buying my meds. Guess which one wins? Pdocs and meds, no matter how much I need it, I can't do it now. Disability is not an option for me. I'm the bread winner. If I leave my job, everything around me will fall apart...If everything wasn't based on just my income, I would consider it. Work and surving comes before my health unfortunately.
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