I'ld like to think that if I get on disability, that I will get a good bit of relief from a tremendous load of anxiety that I carry around in the workplace. I am chronically stressed. Not having to go from job to job and having that keep ending in failure, would take a good hunk of stress out of my life.

I'ld like to think that the removal of the burden of horrendous stress that comes from working at jobs I fail at would allow me to have some recovery from my general psychiatric problems. If I could recover, then I think I could lead a more normal live - kind of like a retired person. I'm age 59, so I think that's reasonable for me to hope for. Had I gone after disability when I was younger, I don't think it would have been a healthy thing - for me. Back when I was having a good bit of success at work - like when I was in my 20's and 30's and 40's - not working would have kept me from knowing what I am capable of when I feel relatively well.

I sure hope I get approved and that it doesn't take too long. Otherwise, I will be doing whatever it is homeless people do. I'll probably read in the library during the day, eat where they give out meals, and head for a shelter at night.