I hear ya, hon. Stress sucks. Bipolar sucks. The two together REALLY suck.

It does sound like you're remarkably self-aware, though, and that is what will save you even when meds stop working and life feels like it's going straight down the hopper. By all means, feel free to come here and rant all you like---there isn't a single emotion you're experiencing that one (or all) of us hasn't dealt with and wouldn't understand. You have plenty of company!