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Originally Posted by Edamame101
Now, I absolutely never go do anything with people, and in all honesty? I feel like no one gets me. All throughout my life I've felt as though I'm the one individual that no one understands. While I accept that this is just part of the subconscious part of being a human being, I feel it's more elevated in myself than in others. I witness being excluded, and have just shut down completely. I've never really liked social events, and now, I avoid them at all costs. I've not gone and done anything with friends in years. I don't really have any friends.
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People sometimes use "antisocial" informally to mean that someone doesn't like to socialize but that's very different from its technical meaning. What you're describing sounds more along the lines of "avoidant" than "antisocial" -- and it doesn't necessarily mean you have a personality disorder.
By any chance have you been seeking out friends who'll judge you by how you perform at social events?
Are there things you enjoy doing anyway that could conceivably be done with friends? If so, perhaps you could just go ahead and do them and see what friends you make in the process.