I fear the day when my therapy ends. I hope that I will be ready, but I worry that I will spiral into a deep, dark depression if it ends before I am emotionally able to stand on my own.

Do you ever think about that? Therapy ending before you are ready? How would you handle it? Would you seek out another therapist? Would you want to crawl in a hole and die? Would you say "Yippee! I am free!"

I can't think about ending therapy. It hurts me too much. Yet it also hurts me to continue. I am so confused about all of this. I wish I could just accept things and take them as they come. I can't. My husband says that I am infatuated with my therapist. I don't agree with him. I am just smart enough to know that I have issues that need to be worked through. I know that I need help doing that.