Psychological treatment records generally are hard to read when they are about you. They are not written to be complimentary, but to establish the need tor treatment and how problems are to be addressed. Most therapists I know would also refuse to give a copy of their notes to a patient who requested them on the same grounds. Some would allow you to look through the records with the therapist there to answer any questions you may have and address concerns that come up. If you have her send the records to your new T, the new T might be able to go through them with you.