KD It has been so ugly for so long. Even when on best behavior, I could always see and feel her unmitigated disgust that I was. Not that I was anything, just: was.

I have since discovered that astrologically she is very fixed/water. That is to say extremely averse to change and very "moody"emotional..... I am mutable/air. ie: loose and in my head. Put us together and it's sorta like somebody farting in a hot tub.