I went to see T today but he had his own stuff he was dealing with so we set up a session for Thursday. I sent him an email telling him that while I know he wants to work on installing the positive things I need for my support, that I need to deal with the whole video thing. I had CSA which included being filmed (ugg)... So every day at work seeing myself on that video product we are now supporting ... well it makes me act out with the head banging. It makes me not want to be. At least I told T in email the truth.