I don't think I could handle it right now. I lost one T (he moved away) and once I found the one I have now, I started to actually work through some things. I have a boatload of stuff going on right now and I'm perfectly happy being dependent on T for a while.

I don't see dependence on a therapist as necessarily a bad thing, depending on the stage of therapy. It can be a very valuable part of the therapeutic relationship.