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Originally Posted by Serotonin
If you feel that you cannot live without therapy it may simply be due to having become dependent upon it, your crutch in life as it were. And if you feel that you have created a bond with your T, and that it would be disastrous for you if it were ever to be broken, then that may in fact happen, as subconscioulsy, that is what you want to happen.
Say to to yourself "I am a strong and independent person, and I rely on no-one and nothing for my own personal well-being and survival". If you use that as your own personal daily mantra, then perhaps you can some day learn to believe in yourself, and develop the confidence and courage to walk freely and alone, and without anyone to lean on.
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It's not that I can't live without therapy. I can. But is it in my best interest to terminate at this time? That is the question. It took 2 years to get where I am in therapy. I fought it tooth and nail and resisted all along the way. I was determined NOT to form any attachment or dependency on her. Contrary to that, the advice I got in here was that I should allow that bond to happen. I should allow that secure attachment to form. It was okay to need her to help me.
In my RL, there are those who often ask me "
How do you manage to work
full time and be a caregiver as well? I don't see how you do it." When they find out that I am in therapy, their response is very favorable. Like
, "
Good for you! You need that person to support you. You need someone to confide in and help you work through the emotional toll that being a caregiver can have on a person."
In my RL, I do not come across as "needy" at all. I give off a completely different persona. Only the people of PC, my husband, my therapist, and one other friend know how '
needy' I can really be.
If it were up to me, I wish I could say,
"Let's terminate therapy and just get it over with." I will survive.
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Say to to yourself "I am a strong and independent person, and I rely on no-one and nothing for my own personal well-being and survival".
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I lived for many years being a strong and independent person. I relied on no-one. I never let anyone in. I never accepted help. Giving into therapy and actually asking for help was a sign a courage for me. Staying in therapy is a sign of strength. Knowing that I need it is a sign of acceptance. Reaching out to the people of PC is my way of admitting that I am struggling with my emotions. Allowing myself to become vulnerable to the people of PC is a sign that I am actually growing. Believing in myself is something that I still need to work on.