This is the bipolar talking.......don't listen to it! You just turned 40, which tends to rattle a lot of people's cages because we look back at our lives around this time, and often find them wanting. You may even be comparing your accomplishments to what you expected from yourself and where you think you should be at this turning point in your life.....and that is almost always a mistake.

I know---I've done it. I did it at age 30, then again at 40. The good news is, by 50 it doesn't matter anymore, because we are at another whole stage of development and outside appearances just aren't as important anymore. Hang in there....better days ARE coming!