I feel much more dependent on this T than on any previous ones.
Last year I was terrified she would die; this year I'm afraid she'll retire.
Offer me a job in another city, and I reply: "I can't go. I need to be near my T."

However, I'm much happier and stronger than I used to be, so if I lost my T, I suppose I would manage. I could never replace my current T, but my journey would go on.