Are you able to email her or give her a letter or something? I too have trouble talking to my T but I have found that sending emails has helped. It has helped keep me feeling connected with her between sessions and it also acts as a conversation starter for when I next see her. If your T doesn't allow emails, maybe you could print out what you have written here and give it to her? I know it is hard but it is only going to get harder if you don't communicate with her. I am fairly sure everyone who has seen a therapist feels this way at some point so your T will not think you are unusual or strange for feeling this way I promise you! Good luck!