Dear T,

Just another super embarrassing email from me, what else is new? but ugh, this one is SUPER pathetic and I hate that I just sent it. Why did you ever agree to work with me? Why are you still seeing me? Are you just afraid of being the next person to abandon me, thinking that might set me over the edge? Am I a a horrible person for putting you in such a position?

When you said today "you're looking at the clock, you probably can't wait to leave" I was thinking just the opposite... I was mad our time was almost up and didn't want to leave. Did you really not pick up on that?

I get to see you again in two days. Why was I so dumb to write such an embarrassing email so soon to seeing you? I'm afraid of freaking you out but also want/need you to know how much your support means to me.