Thanks MentalPollution.

Well, I am on my way out - it is hubby's birthday and we are having dinner with about 25 other people. That is an issue all on its own.

Anyway. I am wearing the pants and a top that I bought but tried on and thought no way! I really liked it so I tried it on again. I called hubby to have a look at my size * outfit. I trust his honesty (he is never nasty). He said "that doesn't look size *, it looks ok". My heart started dropping when he said "it looks nice, it looks good". Instead of saying, as I normally would that I look huge, I just thanked him.

I have really tried tonight. I did my nails (even saving the broken one). I have taken extra care on my make-up. I am wearing my always tied up hair loose and blow dried. I don't know how much of what I have done is for me, but I really wanted to pry a compliment out of my husband. Just make him feel proud, despite my size.

Anyway - the new clothes feel nice, but I still feel uncomfortable in my own skin. I guess that won't go away anytime soon.

I will walk with my shoulders back, my head high, and I will try to be proud of who I am, even if it is just for tonight.

Thanks to all of you, for your support.