I think that's something we've all dealt with before. I've alienated and pushed people for years. A few of those relationships are gone forever, but I was able to fix some of them thru honesty. Coming out of the closet, so to speak, is a humbling, frightening thing to do but it helped shed some light on why I did what I did and helped a few understand me better.

Please don't feel too bad, though. It was your bipolar that brought on that behavior. It wasn't you as a human being, though I know it might be hard to separate the two. Please remember that you are a good person. I'm sure your true friends know this too.

I wish you peace.