Sitting here at work waiting for the time to leave. I am so out of it. I took an extra anxiety pill and that is helping. But I hate PTSD. I sent my T about 5 emails so far! Poor T. :-) He is so good with me. I don't know how he does it.

I am so angry at those people who made those movies of us kids down in Florida!!! I am soooooo angry that there were so many red flags and people did not do what they should have done to stop them!!!! It is not fair. I found on line the confirmation about what was done to me and the other kids in Tampa in the 1970's. It all makes sense now. But it is not fair. Some of the kids later took their own lives. All because of that looser who abused his power for his own perversions.
It is not right. It is so evil when people harm children. I HATE HATE HATE people who do those things to children!!!!!!

I am not sure if I want to just go to the park by myself for 1/2 day today or if I am going to go home and spend time with my S/O. I want to escape but I am trying to escape myself and this anger and rage inside. I need to work through it. I must somehow get it out of me.