I go through this all the time with myself too Moose. Especially when birthdays are close. When I'm feeling like this tho, usually I'm overlooking almost everything I have done, plus meassuring my accomplishments against others. usually I'm only looking at accomplishments in terms of money, career and things like that when I'm feeling this way. You know the things that won't really matter so much when I'm gone. When I'm gone people aren't going to say "well she didn't have much money so.. Pfft".

Try to remind your self of all the things you have done, even write them down. I can think of a few things off the top of my head you've done... You've helped people here, you make people laugh and smile, you are a good mom that spends time with your kids, you take Judo and singing lessons, your battling bipolar- you're still here... Success!!! I'm sure you have way more than that. It's easy to forget those things, but those are the things that count most.

Don't be to hard on yourself Moose, You are doing stuff that's important.