It's ok to post when yor feeling crappy and messed up, that's usually when we need to post most no? Unless your gonna be mean to people here then don't worry about that ok.

I totally got what you just said, with your wife. Been there sooo many times with my bf. I just cannot freaking see it when it's happening. Do you have a therapist?

You know, I've been working on this for many years and I still cannot see it happening when it is. I might be reading you wrong, but I think that's what you are talking about?