No, it's not easy. Leaving my husband was the hardest thing i ever did. Seriously. I still love him. He still tries to get me back after 4
years. He has broken into my house, stalked me, r*ped me. I will not go back but i still miss him sometimes. I miss the good parts or the early days. That's what abusers do. They hook you by being sweet and courting you. It's part of a pattern. Once you are married or in deep enough they gradually change and escalate. Usually bit by bit. If it's too shocking too soon you leave. So they have to tear
you down slowly and up your tolerance and acceptance of abuse. Do not be decieved. It is brainwashing and it it devious and they know EXACTLY what they're doing. It's not easy to leave because you have battered woman syndrome but i dont like that term because it has nothing to do with gender. I grew up in a hone where my mom was the abuser and we ( including my dad) where all
terrified of her. So no it's not easy for you to leave, but you deserve to be safe and you can. There is help out there. You can call domestic abuse hotline. Reach out. You aren't alone. Get support other than your husband.