Thanks for the replies. Karebear, I wish I knew how to make it stay, but I think it's going to for me. Something changed a few sessions ago during EMDR. I can't put my finger on it because I always felt close to my T and knew she cared a lot about me, but I feel like it's "cemented" now. Don't know why but it just is.

vanessa: My T and I have a rule that I can email her as much as I want but she never answers unless it's about scheduling or my birthday! It works for me. I know she was smiling when she read it, though. I just KNOW.

I'm going out-of-town soon so I've got to get off. Oh, and I probably will get to see my T before she goes away for 2 weeks. She said something like "for you I'll make time." To quote Sally Field again. "She likes me. She really likes me"!

But I know we're not friends. She's my T but what a special bond to have a T. I'm just in a good mood right now. We talked about how I spiral down very quickly and how to try to avoid that. She went to a workshop about body feelings and has new techniques for me. I'm not sure I can use them yet though.