IA with others who referenced turning a certain age as probably contributing to these thoughts. When I turned 30, I had them. "Look at me, I'm not this or that. I don't have this or that. I haven't accomplished this or that."  I think that's just a natural reaction to hitting a milestone age. Not to downplay how you are feeling, but I think a lot, or at least some of it, has to do with you turning 40. The older I get, the wiser and smarter I get. Yea someone else may have what I don't but so what. I find comfort in striving to be where I want to be, and realize that while some may have more than me, I have more than a lot of people my age. I can't complain. Is what it is....
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