I'm sorry. I just need to get my head straight. I didn't mean to dump this on you. I don't let myself feel good and I don't let myself feel bad. That is my problem and it's really hard to stop now. I am 33 and been this way since I was a kid. I have issues knowing how I really feel because I try to change it soooo much. I just need to get my head straight. Thank you for listening. I'm not going to drag this out. I'll feel better later. I just need to wait until the dose of mood stabalizers gets to the higher dose. I just started them. I'll feel better later. Then I won't be like this. I'm going to work now.