Yes Anika, that is what I am talking about. By the time I realize it, it's always too late. But really, what does it matter? It will happen anyways. Karen (my wife) says to go with it. Really??? I would have had the radio blasting and been on the computer and been really loud while everyone was sleeping if I just "went with it". Karen also said on the phone a few minutes ago she thinks my brain shuts off under too much stress. Adult ADD. My other diagnosis. to answer the other question... I have a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a therapy group. the therapy group is anger management and is court ordered, but it is still a resource I just started using for this. I yelled at my neighbor. That was enough to get anger management. I really made my psychologist and psychiatrist work for my diagnosis. I fought them on it. I told them they would have to prove it to me. That sounds so stupid now. But it was so important to me for them to be sure. I am having acceptance issues about all of this.