Me: "Sorry."
Them: "It's okay, really."
Me: "Thanks, but I really I am sorry."
Them: "It's really fine, you can't help it".
Me: "But it doesn't make it right."
Them: "Oh my god, stop apologizing, seriously! <3"
Me: "Sorry."

I totally get what you mean, and I emphasize with the others that have replied. The amount of times I've had to apologize for something that's actually quite out of my control is pretty high...but when in a stable mood I can look back and see that, even though I did the right thing by apologizing, it wasn't always for the right reason.

You need to stop beating yourself up about it. Obviously bipolar disorder isn't an excuse for everything, but it's a pretty ******* good reason. What I do is apologize and explain when I get a chance to in private, and explain that my disorder sometimes takes control of me...and the person they occasionally see isn't a person that I like or actually am. Sometimes I wait until an episode has ended so I can apologize at the end without the risk of apologizing for different things all the time.

It may feel useless, but an apology goes a long way: especially when you give an apology coupled with an explanation of the disorder itself. Also include the fact that you think it feels meaningless to be apologizing so many times, but that you don't mean a word of it..and your behaviour is a temporary thing that happens every now and then.

For me, when apologizing to a good friend for something I've done/said or they way I've behaved, I say something like "Please remember it's only temporary, I miss the real me too...but I'm pretty sure he'll be back soon. I'm sorry".

Apologies that this post seems self centred to me, it's just the only way I could think of replying in a helpful way (And there you go, apologizing again )

RB ♥