What usually happens to me is I *think* I am being rational. Usually I am not, it is like an out of body experience, Irreplaceable... That's a very good description. It shatters my reality. Sometimes when it starts to click that I have just lost touch, I can't do anything except shake or rock myself back and forth. It's shattering to me. I hate hurtin those who I love, I feel ashamed that I'm not in control or that I'm that out of it. But you know what, the people I love understand this. My bf understands and sticks by my side. It sounds like your wife is loving and she is trying to understand too. We're lucky for that.

Not only is my reality shattered after but so is my ego self.