Thank Trippin,

Well my mom is one of the most Dysfunctional people I know. We've all tried different ways to talk to her, or get her to get help, or want help, or help her see how it hurts us an hurts her. She's gotten slightly better over the years in some ways and worse in others. So what I try to do now is just remind myself that it's not me it's her. She is ill, and I know that. Harder to do when she starts in on your children tho. She hasn't even met my bf's family yet because I'm so afraid of the consequences I will have to deal with. And it's been five years. She is talking about moving to our small city and it scares the crap out of me. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way.

She picks on my sisters husband and my bf worse than she picks in us. It's sort of insufferable. But I have the choice to either deal, or no relationship. She is the only " parent" I have, and I just can't choose the later so I have to deal.

Sorry I'm getting ranty, I'm just stressed, I need some peace. It upsets me more when I actually think about it. And I'm getting myself in a self pity mode here over not having parents. I should be use to it by now, none the less it hurts and sucks not matter how old I am.