I'm so glad to hear this!

I second MKAC's suggestion about a day hospital/intensive outpatient program. My T and I made a plan for me to go this route last spring if I didn't get better and the suicidal thoughts kept coming. She called in advance during one of our sessions and we both talked to the intake person--it didn't feel as scary after doing this.

There are options out there. I deeply regret each of my four suicide attempts for how they hurt me and those around me. People do care more than you think... it took me four times to learn this, I guess. Good luck and keep talking to T and taking good, safe care of yourself!