Saw my T today. I took in pics of my kids so he could see who we talk about, LOL He of course asked about my eating, almost first thing. I was doing really good until last week when I wasn't feeling good. That, the fever and lack of energy cut things a bit, but I kept up pretty good, I think. This week I'm still not great, kind of mixed for how I feel. My sinuses and ears are doing a little better, but now this week off and on my stomach bothers me a little and I'll have a salty taste or feeling in my throat/stomach. I haven't experienced this before so I don't know why it's happening. Anyway, my T and I talked some about my kids. I'm sure he could tell that it bothers me. I told him that sometimes I just don't know whether to continue to try for a "normal" life with my kids again, or if I should just give up. He always asks about my pain and if it's been bothering much, and he's gotten to mentioning about meds I take for the pain, etc., since the time not long ago that I admitted taking myself on/off meds and taking as much as I need (within reason) to make the really stubborn pain go away. After my last note to him and admitting a few things about taking vitamins & supplements, he seems to make it more of an issue. Today he talked about my work and how knowledgeable I must be about all the different kinds of drugs and treatments and stuff. Yep, he's on to me, LOL. There were other things he asked about, but these are the highlites. It will be another long two weeks now until the next appointment. I'm not real motivated to cook anything to eat tonight after having the appointment today. I did tell him what I had to eat today (he wasn't impressed). Yesterday I was mostly hungry for just sugar. I went out and had a really good high fat/cholesterol meal a couple days ago, and I don't really want to go out from work and buy lunch now. I don't really want to go to the grocery store and buy it either. Just not motivated to spend the money. I have a lot of bills. Don't remember what else I was going to tell you. I'm getting kind of tired again.