I dont know how to start this other than an overview then to the current events.. and how I am feeling or even what to feel anymore .
The boyfriends children moved back in 6 months ago , they have previously resided with thier mother for the past 4 years . they are a girl { this one I have the most problems with, will go more indepth later } she is 14 the boy is 15 { hes not great but, managable }
During the time with thier mother supervision wasnt really there and they essentally ran around the neighborhood doing whatever, whenever. { mother was employed as a bartender } she had her older son " watch them" but, he was busy with his drug dealing ect to be of any real use .. the house was raided variety of occations .. the mother has since joined the carnaval and is touring with them .. now in the off season is bartending again.. The daughter at best is difficult I have a 13 yr old ..{ 14 end of March } is a generally a good kid ..other then the typical teenage stuff ..
He has either blinders or just outright chooses NOT to see what manulipuations they are doing or he is just going thru his male menopause or second childhood .. he allows them to run around do just about anything they want to they have no real disapline for bringing home bad grades .. or for wrong behavior. the girl of his gotton pregnant and had a miscarraige { according to her }
its more I am just the maid and cook here his daughter is just foul mouthed to me .. he wont do anything about it .. neither one does any chores its all dumped on my daughter and me. I try to have a general conversation with him .. his daughter intrupts he ignores me .. I get angry. he wont listen when I try to give my opinion of the differences in raising kids . he is " allowing them freedoms" .. which is wrong his daughter is barely 14 and gotton pregnant . the boy has gotton someone else preg. { in a different state } she miscarried he now has VD from some other girl over here.. they are simply little animals I find it discusting. at such a young age ..
We have been together for 8 years and I am wondering if the relationship is just simply over because of the different views of raising children. I try to talk to him I am either getting playcated or the brush off or basically ignored. I have tryed to communicate even wrote a letter he knows I am unhappy but doesnt make efforts to work on it or try to see what is wrong I am frustrated, angry, depressed , sad { I believe there are differences on being depressed and sad .. different variations } He isnt open to counceling at all ..... I have approached that also. I dont know if the better thing to do i move out and struggle financally or just accept this ..I love him and he is or was the one decent man I have been involved with. .. previous relationship was abusive physcally . I dont know i am on the fence per say and need to do something before I go insane or worse

its more of what does it matter anymore what I say or i am no longer your concern .. anymore or so it feels like anymore . I will end this on my still being completely confused more .