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Originally Posted by granite1
so i get there and she is 10 min late for the session she didn't say anything as usual until we got to the room.i walked in the room and the chair had been moved to about 3 inches from the opposite wall. She really wants me in the corner.it totally threw me again.
then she says she was sorry and she would make it up to me.(she didn't)
then she got up and said i want some water I'm going to get some want some ?? i shook my head no she left the room and went and filled her water bottle. I felt left there again in the corner.
she got back and sat in her chair and then grabbed her can of mints and said i want a mint then asked if i wanted one.i shook my head no.she said she needed one because her mouth gets dry with all the talking we are doing. She was just so mean and angry at me i don't know why.
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I am sorry to hear you are in so much pain.
I've taken the liberty of putting your responses in
blue. It is clear you feel rejected and abandoned.
But what actually happened?
* She was late.
* The chair was in a different place.
* She offered you some water.
* She offered you a mint.
Now I wasn't there and I didn't hear her voice. But her
actions don't add up to hate, as far as I can see. The therapist you have described over the past months doesn't sound like a hater.
I'm sure you felt the emotions you describe, and they sound horrible. But I can't help wondering if you didn't bring those emotions with you into that room. Did you already feel like that, and saw everything that happened through the lens of your own pain?
Sending you hugs.
((Granite))