Please try to step back and take a look at what you're doing to yourself here, granite. You are jumping to conclusions instead of being direct and asking T. You are punishing yourself.

It's important that you understand your process - as you know that it is affecting you deeply.

Maybe your T is intentionally provoking you in order to get a response out of you...Maybe she is frustrated with you...Maybe she was sarcastic. MAYBE it's out of care for you and wanting you to make progress....

But until you call her on it, you will not know....and instead, you are torturing yourself with what you are assuming.

I understand that it's SO hard....but I feel so awful when you're in such pain.

(((( HUGS ))))