I can tell you're really hurting about this. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you. My situation is only a little bit similar. I'm 40, and my older brother who is 43 has always been the favorite. He still is, even though he is now in federal prison because of a child porn conviction. My parents always want to stay in close contact with me, probably because I am the father of their only grandkids, but I just want to be left alone. A lot of my screwed up head is probably a result of how they treated me growing up. Now I'm living by myself and broke because of a situation that's my own fault, and I'm being forced to accept their help because I have nowhere else to turn. I feel like I have to go visit them on Easter because they are helping me, but it's killing me. I just want to be left alone. Let them have their judgmental religious lives, but leave me out of it. Trying to work through all of this in therapy, but I just don't like them. No great wisdom, but I can at least offer a little sympathy.