Hi Granite,

I hope you aren't mad at me for saying you might have interpreted your t's behavior wrong. I think you are such a nice person, and i really like you. And i SOOOOO want you to have a good experience with your t, and to realize through your interactions with her, over time, that there really are people in this world who truly care about you, and who don't want to hurt you. It sounds like your t might be this person, but you are just really, really scared to believe in because of all the times you've thought somebody cared, only to get terribly hurt!!

I can relate with much of what you say in your posts.