I take them first thing every morning...I think stress is also a factor plus another med I take technically tries to keep me making urine. All of them I take before 6am.

Have to keep the blood pressure low. Already have dizzy spells that got me an echocardio and a holter event monitoring. Waiting for results on those to see if my heart is causing my dizziness when I walk sometimes.

Anyway, I've definitely heard the "fake it 'till you make it" theory. I must be so good at faking it that I don't know who I am anymore. I'm just a mask. It's funny that I can think of this jokingly, but I don't have anyone around to joke with. I'm not ashamed of my depression and i'll tell people - I don't care how awkward they get. Hell i want them to feel awkward because it hurts me too. But only around people who really get it can you really have a joke or two. People who just get down or aren't nailed with crippling urge to sleep all day or hide don't really get it. It's like talking to condescending idiots.

Not sure what my problem is today. I'm not content to be just down. I want to be annoying too. But I won't. I'll just keep the act going if I can. I should charge for the show - lead actor is me being normal