Well, mostly I'm afraid to go out because I think someone's gonna kill, rape, or hurt me in other ways. I used to feel that way a lot but then I was in this intensive partial program and that helped a lot. Most of the time now I have no desire to go out because I just don't feel like it mostly. I actually do like being cooped up in the house all the time and I never have the desire to go out unless it's to my dad's house.

Unfortunately we don't have any other types of programs available in my area. At least not unless I drove myself...and I don't have a car, license, etc. So that would be impossible. Actually, I started looking for other counseling services in my county last night because I'm not getting any help at all.

Both me and my bf go to this partial program but on different days. To give you an idea of how lame it is...on Wednesday group therapy was about what everyone did over the weekend. Somebody please tell me how that's supposed to be therapeutic???