I've dreamed about my T twice. The first time was right after I first mentioned the sexual abuse. I dreamed I was in the waiting room and other people I didn't know were there also. T came out and said my name, and then started talking to me about my actual issues there in the waiting room, in front of everyone.

In the other dream where he appeared, I was trying to help protect my best friend from her ex-husband. There was a projection on a screen in the middle of this room, of the ex pointing a gun at at my friend and at me and another friend, J. J and I both had guns and were trying to keep an eye out for the ex actually appearing. In the dream I was confused because obviously, this was just a projection and I didn't know why the ex was doing this and kept waiting for him to appear in reality with a gun. Then the ex stepped out from behind the screen and said that he never had a gun and the danger "is always from people you actually trust." I turned around and women I knew from high school and college were standing there pointing guns at me. My friend whose ex it actually is, and J put their guns down and just walked away and left me there alone.

My husband was standing behind me also, yelling at me about how this was all my fault and I should have known better than to even pick up a gun in the first place. My T was just standing there off to the side watching. I asked my T if he was going to help me and he said no. It's not his job to actually DO anything in my life. He was just there to watch. I woke up sobbing.